If You Stand For Nothing…


If you stand for nothing, what will you fall for?

Football was quite interesting today.

On Mondays, Thursdays, Saturdays, and Sundays, the sport of Football reigns supreme. Whether it is college, high school, or professional, people are glued to their television screens to watch their favorite teams win whatever game they are playing. Normally, the only thing you have to worry about as a football team is whether or not they win or lose the game they are playing today, You worry for the offensive and defensive lines of your favorite teams, and that is the only thing that stresses you out on a normal Sunday afternoon and evening. Unfortunately, given a certain political figure’s social media posts, the focus and purpose of today’s athletic events changed.

Today, football got political.

In the past forty-eight hours, Donald Trump has tweeted his opinions regarding a quarterback’s refusal to stand during the United State’s National Anthem that plays prior. I won’t get into my own opinions regarding his stance on their stance during the national anthem and whether I agree with their refusal to stand during the national anthem, but I am impressed by the protest nonetheless.

The response from the football community has been overwhelming.

At the start of every single American football game across the country today, players of various race, creeds, and beliefs stood together in protest. The Pittsburgh Steelers and other teams remained in the locker room  in solidarity for the political climate of the country. Other members of various teams kneeled instead of normally standing, while others locked arms with their teammates to show support for the injustices that seem so common in this country. No angry words were spoken, and no violence was performed. People just acted in silent, peaceful protest.

It was heartwarming.

This world is an absolute mess nowadays. Everyone is angry at the angry world around us.  Today, protest against the world’s ills was made, and it was made correctly for once because no one got violent.

I get so sad with the way the world is sometimes.

The statement made by so many professional football players today gave me so much hope.

At the start of each professional NFL football game, as the national anthem of the united states played or was sung, most players either linked arms with their fellow players or took a knee.

No violence, no words.

I was moved by how impactful such a quiet act of defiance was.

It was my kind of protest.

Violent acts and hateful words, no matter what side of the argument you may find yourself on, are so easy to find these days, As an anti-political party citizen of the United States of America, I try to see both sides, and I hate how angry the world has become.

Today, the NFL gave me hope.



Today was such a Friday.

So, in my new position at work, the powers that be have decided that any one who has direct contact with a client or customer must now take these occasional short video course on how to best conduct business with a customer in multiple ways.

Today was about written communications.

I have a master’s degrees in writing. Let’s just say I disagreed with some points.

Sore, So Sore

I can barely lift my glass of wine right now.

It is really tragic.

So, for some dumb reason, I signed up with a personal trainer to get into better shape. I knew the cardio machines, but I knew I needed to touch the other side of the gym as well. So I went, and he basically kicked my ass. What is even sadder is that I could barely lift ten pounds without getting exhausted beyond all belief. Not gonna lie; it is incredibly depressing that I have become so week.

Hopefully, with training and a little faith, I will get stronger.

…because I’m lonely.

I stopped at the store to pick up some protein powder today. Then, I went to the gym and worked out amongst countless others. Then, I went to the store to pick up a blender bottle for the protein powder and stood in line to make my purchase.

Tomorrow, I will go to work, come home, and then go meet with a personal trainer at my gym to get in better shape.

I know. Most of what I just typed seems like the average day of a person my age, but I have a reason for doing all of these things.

It’s because, moving out here on my own, I am so, so lonely.

Until It is Gone

You really do not know what you have until it is gone.

I am alone.

Every single day since I  moved out here, I get up, get ready, go to work, and come home. Then, I have a snack, walk over to the gym, work out, walk back, take a shower, make dinner, watch television, and then go to bed. Still, in between all of this, I am experiencing new things I want to share with friends and family, but I can’t because everyone who knows me is all the way across the country.

I have no one while I am out here.

Lazy Bum

I had every intention of being productive today.

That’s the funny thing.

I woke up early, decided to settle in and watch the FIFA World Cup final, thought I had a little time to spare, and promptly fell asleep. My little cat nap lasted about three hours…

…it was not until one in the afternoon.

Even funnier, I did not even bother to get out of bed until about a half hour later. I was supposed to spend my free time this weekend getting unpacked and settled into my new apartment, but I spent most of my time taking naps.

I am a lazy bum.

Use To It

I think I am becoming more a part of this place and less a part of where I grew up.

I can feel myself building the routines of a brand new life, and it is terrifying. I do not yet know exactly who I am here, but I am starting to forget who I was,  which is leaving me with a bit of an identity crisis. I have to learn how to work, play, and just generally live as almost a completely different person. I have to start to make memories with new people and cultivate brand new relationships.

Will I ever get used to it?