Today is a cause for celebration
Today I was brave.
Today I did something I normally only do when it is absolutely necessary, something that can fill me with dread each time an opportunity regarding this situation arises.
I talked…to someone other than my mirror.
Sure, this is something most people can do without any sort of problem in their day to day lives and the conversation was a short and meaningless, but it wasn’t all that easy. I have social anxiety, so situations like this often fill me with fear and dread like nothing else.
Still, I talked with another human.
They were short, meaningless conversations, but to me, they were a battle against nerves and anxiety that I beat.
In talking today, I won a small victory for myself.
Unless you are the world’s biggest narcissist, you have insecurities, faults, and failures. You have something you aren’t good at and feel bad that you aren’t good at. Often, the knowledge of those faults is so overwhelming that we don’t even bother trying to do anything close to whatever we were trying to do.
We keep ourselves from our fearful insecurities without even trying and berate ourselves over our failures.
Anyway, I’ve said it once, and I’ll say it again. We need to learn to be a hell of a lot kinder to ourselves, especially over situations like this, and we can start by appreciating the times in our lives that the universe doesn’t tip against our favor.
We should start by celebrating life’s little victories.
Example: you have a few extra dollars in your pocket and buy a two dollar scratch off at the lottery machine. Taking a scuffed up quarter from the bottom of your pocket or purse, you scratch of the designated markings on the paper ticket to find you’ve won five dollars. Sure, it isn’t the ten thousand dollar prize advertised on the top of the ticket, but you earned more than you lost. You were a little bit lucky, and sometimes that is enough to get through the day.
Though, luck isn’t always the lady of our victories.
Sometimes, like I became today, we get brave. In spite of our weaknesses and insecurities, we choose to be better than ourselves. It may only result in little victories, but we overcame our own obstacles during these moments where we have previously failed or just don’t normally succeed in. It doesn’t have to be a big thing. You don’t have to climb to the top of the mountain. It can be just stepping over a small bump in the road.
No, we won’t always win every battle we have to fight in our day to day lives. We may not win the war, but a battle or two that go in our favor is cause for celebration .
You may not have won the gold medal or even the silver, but on days where you still earn the bronze, you should still hold your head high.